
"A
bath for me
consisted of
standing in a
large tin tub, with
my mother
scrubbing me
down next to the
wood-burning
stove."


For most of us, life involves an
assortment of twists and turns, upward and downward spirals and, of
course, plenty of ordinary, less
than memorable occurrences
that cause our lives to seem stagnat or predetermined.
Yet, memories of some experiences never leave us. They are haunting visuals
that carry with them lasting life lessons and humility to boot. Perhaps those
are the ones that inspire us to follow our dreams and that push us to accomplishments
beyond our wildest imagination.
For me, those memories are centered on the small house my family lived in
on the edge of Durham's infamous Hayti district. I didn't perceive our house
as small back then. As a matter of fact, it was probably pretty big compared
to some dwellings in and around our neighborhood. The problem as I remember
it was its deteriorating condition.
The antiquated plumbing system made relieving yourself in a hole in the back
yard seem the normal thing to do.
Frozen pipes in the winter were common, and plenty of empty milk jugs and
buckets were always on hand for the trip next door to our landlords' house
to collect water for cooking, bathing and drinking. Their home, a large, two-story
stone structure sat prominently in the midst of the other dilapidated wood-frame
houses they owned. The patriarch of the family was a professor at what was
then North Carolina College. He was a proud, portly man, with a round, childlike
face, eyes slanted slightly, and hair that was black and straight.
He and his mother owned and managed a dozen or so houses much like the one
in which we lived. I've never known how they managed to accumulate so much
more than the average "Negro," but I suppose like Frederick Douglass, Sojourner
Truth and George Washington Carver, they apparently raised themselves, by
sheer will and fortitude, above all that was against them.
I don't know why, but I remember distinctly the green garden hose they'd connect
to their kitchen sink, and then hurl outside to my brothers, sisters and me,
where we stood trembling in the cold. The water hauled over from our landlords'
house never made it to a bathtub. We didn't have one. In fact, I don't remember
taking a bath in an actual tub until much later. A bath for me consisted of
standing in a large tin tub, with my mother scrubbing me down next to the
wood-burning stove. I'm sure my sister Carolyn still bears the mark of getting
a little too close to that old, rusty stove during one of her nightly scrub-downs.
When I think back to those early years of my life, they remind me of how far
I've come and of a place where I'd never like to go again. But more than that,
those early memories have become the source of countless morality stories
for my children, and for close friends who've lost their way and forgotten
how far they've come.
Unfortunately, whether things will get that bad again is not totally in my
control. But that's OK. Perhaps it's even a good thing. I feel blessed to
not only have such humbling memories, I'm especially grateful for the sense
of humility that those memories have inspired in me.